• Fall 2018

    Anxiety…Rest

    Anxiety comes like a tidal wave and throws me into confusion Mental illness showing through the cracks of a broken person Can’t think, can’t breathe yet breathing too much Can’t speak, yet speaking incessantly Can’t express what’s going on inside of me Frozen, thoughts get stuck in my brain like a beetle trying to wade through mud Grasping for hands, for hugs, for help Reaching for sanity, for peace, for air Anxiety rears its ugly head like a beast that’s been waiting to pounce My heart is pounding like a bass drum, speeding down a railroad track, the world is a blur Wringing my hands, biting my nails, the tears…

  • Fall 2018,  Five Minute Friday,  FMF 31-Day Challenge 2018

    Day 28: Song

    This month, I’m participating in a Five Minute Friday challenge called “31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes,” responding to a one-word prompt for five minutes each day in October. Click here to join in! Years ago during a worship service at my church back home, they showed a video of several church members talking about the struggles they had faced, and after telling their story, they would say, “but I’m still singing.” Today marks five years since I woke up with a headache, and the pain has not stopped for a moment since. The 18-year-old me is still in the same pain the 13-year-old version felt. I’ve searched everywhere and tried…

  • Fall 2018,  Five Minute Friday,  FMF 31-Day Challenge 2018

    Day 2: Afraid

    This month, I’m participating in a Five Minute Friday challenge called “31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes,” responding to a one-word prompt for five minutes each day in October. Click here to join in! I’ve spent a lot of time being afraid. Throughout my life, I have battled irrational fears as a result of my anxiety disorders, as well as fear of the future, fear of vulnerability, fear of failure, fear of success, fear of rejection. There are countless things one can be afraid of, and my brain has mastered pointing out every possibility. However, in recent years, I’ve come to realize that there is no need for fear.…

  • Five Minute Friday,  Summer 2018

    When There Seems to Be No Way

    This post was written for the weekly Five Minute Friday blog linkup. Each week, writers respond to a one-word prompt by writing for five minutes, then share their unedited writing with each other. Click here to join the fun! This week’s prompt: Way. The Israelites are trapped in slavery, and Pharaoh refuses to let them go. God sends 10 plagues and then splits open the sea to lead His people to freedom. Mankind is dead in sin and rebellion, destined to be separated from God forever. God sends His only Son to redeem us and restore our relationship. God makes a way when there seems to be no way. This week,…