• Fall 2018

    Anxiety…Rest

    Anxiety comes like a tidal wave and throws me into confusion Mental illness showing through the cracks of a broken person Can’t think, can’t breathe yet breathing too much Can’t speak, yet speaking incessantly Can’t express what’s going on inside of me Frozen, thoughts get stuck in my brain like a beetle trying to wade through mud Grasping for hands, for hugs, for help Reaching for sanity, for peace, for air Anxiety rears its ugly head like a beast that’s been waiting to pounce My heart is pounding like a bass drum, speeding down a railroad track, the world is a blur Wringing my hands, biting my nails, the tears…

  • Fall 2018,  Five Minute Friday,  FMF 31-Day Challenge 2018

    Day 4: Why

    This month, I’m participating in a Five Minute Friday challenge called “31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes,” responding to a one-word prompt for five minutes each day in October. Click here to join in! Sometimes I wonder why God does things. I don’t tend to ask Him why I’m going through difficult times; I know that they are part of the consequences of the Fall of Man and that God will use trials for my good. I just get curious: Why did God create a universe that is so expansive we can’t even comprehend it? Why did He allow us to put men on the moon? Why do we…

  • Fall 2018,  Five Minute Friday,  FMF 31-Day Challenge 2018

    Day 2: Afraid

    This month, I’m participating in a Five Minute Friday challenge called “31 Days of Five Minute Free Writes,” responding to a one-word prompt for five minutes each day in October. Click here to join in! I’ve spent a lot of time being afraid. Throughout my life, I have battled irrational fears as a result of my anxiety disorders, as well as fear of the future, fear of vulnerability, fear of failure, fear of success, fear of rejection. There are countless things one can be afraid of, and my brain has mastered pointing out every possibility. However, in recent years, I’ve come to realize that there is no need for fear.…

  • Summer 2018

    Here I Raise My Ebenezer

    Here I raise my Ebenezer Hither by Thy help I’ve come And I hope, by Thy good pleasure, Safely to arrive at home Jesus sought me when a stranger Wandering from the fold of God He, to rescue me from danger, Interposed His precious blood When I was in seventh grade and joined my youth group’s student leadership team, my youth pastor gave me a copy of Do Hard Things by Alex and Brett Harris as a reading assignment. While my youth pastor gave our team several months to read the book, I devoured it the first week. This book revolutionized the way I viewed the teen years, giving me…