
Anxiety…Rest
Anxiety comes like a tidal wave and throws me into confusion
Mental illness showing through the cracks of a broken person
Can’t think, can’t breathe yet breathing too much
Can’t speak, yet speaking incessantly
Can’t express what’s going on inside of me
Frozen, thoughts get stuck in my brain like a beetle trying to wade through mud
Grasping for hands, for hugs, for help
Reaching for sanity, for peace, for air
Anxiety rears its ugly head like a beast that’s been waiting to pounce
My heart is pounding like a bass drum, speeding down a railroad track, the world is a blur
Wringing my hands, biting my nails, the tears come with the feeling of helplessness
I can’t sit still but I can’t move
Can’t catch my breath
Can’t fix myself
Can’t calm these nerves
Yet through the fog and the chaos and the torrential fear
I hear the Voice:
Be still, My child, My beloved
Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are Mine
This too will pass
A breath in light of eternity
You can’t see the end, but trust Me, it’s coming
I will pull you out of this muck
I will calm your clenched fists, your clenched heart
Cling to Me, and I will give your soul rest
Rest

